Is it just enough?

Is it just enough for people who keeps believing in their dreams? I had believed in the past that I could manifest my dream to enter my 'ideal university' since graduating fro high school. But I couldn't believe it that i should waive good bye to that almamater.
Yeahh right, my parents could't afford my tuition fee there. That famous university is only for a high level financial class people . I didn't make any cut to be a high class one. My dad's bussiness was bankrupt. In the other hand I was succsessful to be accepted in some state institution at that time, so was my 'dream university'.
Perhaps Allah had another reason why I couldn't study in my ideal college. I was envy to the max with my friends at school. My best friend Saskia could enter her ideal university in Bandung, Salwa made her dream to be an architect in one of Swasta college in J town, Amy , my classmate and my friend who took the entrance test in that 'dream college' was accepted there. Oh my god, I was very envy to the max with her. Her parents could afford her tuition fee while my parents couln't.
I passed my college time not with an enthusiastic spirit. I had ever blamed my parents because of them, I should lose my dream. But I think it was a big mistake.
looking one of my collegue in the office Uni, who is struggle hard to work in order to pay her living cost here and her college fee. I learn a lot how to be grateful more. Poor is not a destiny, and so is glory. Allah gives the same portion for us to fight for our future.
I also thank to God I met my new friend Uni here. She is the toughest girl that i ever met after my Mom in the first rank. Looking the other architects who work in my office at the first time, I was envy with them, coz they can go to work by their own car, though i know it must be given by their parents, hahaha. There're also girls whose living cost and other needs are still being afforded by their parents. At ones I was envy with them. Why their God gave them such a big grace like that. and in addition of that I guess all of their salary is totally for their pocket money. how lucky they are! .
But Uni is different. She taught me much. I was ashame at once while she told her story. How she could afford her tuition fee like now, and how did she can move to Jakarta and left her hometown on the behalf of her dream.
Though she suffered much at ones, she was still being grateful by all the things that Allah had given to her.
She went to Jakarta to seek for job without her parent's permission . She had ever been a domestic assitant in Bandung. Working as a factory worker in Tanggerang and finally got a chance to work as an assistant to financial maanager here. She was very grateful that finally she could work in the office. Not in the factory anymore. She paid her living cost here, her tuition fee and even she is still able to send her parents money from her salary which is not much than the regular worker pay in Jakarta.  
Perhaps life for her is not just. But she keeps telling to me that Allah is fair. He is fair and will give more when we're more grateful toward him. It punched me much.
I was deep in tears by the time I went to my board near my office afrer heard Uni's story . I asked for the forgiveness to Allah that I never be grateful during that time. I was wrong to blame my parents about their incapability to afford my school fee. I was in a big wrong.
And right now I believe that I feel His bless one by one. Graduating from state university of Jakarta with my proud GPA that I presented it to my Mom, I could get a job faster than my other friend. While I was afraid before that I will get difficulties to find a job because I'm just a bachelor from linguistic department from State University in Jakarta, Not from UI, ITB, UNPAD or UGM.
But I prove that I was wrong. U can get everything when u believe it and when u persist it to be true.

Right now I can help my Mom's burden to pay for our house's loan. Though it still lasts untill 10 years ahead. But I thank to God that finally we can get back our home . Home where can shelter my family in the future. A home for my parents to spend their old time together.
And the other blessing that Allah gave to me that I was accepted in a middle shipping company in East jakarta. Though it's not as popular as Daihatsu, BRI, Nestle or Unilever. But I believe I will get many lessons and experiences there.

Ya Rabb, keep guiding me in Your path therefore I will always be a good and beneficial person for my family, my man, my friends and others.

Thanks for everything


Best Regards


My thought

Keep on Dreamin

 

Rockavolution 2011

there're too many sweet moments in the past. And i decided to share it therefore I can recall them one by one. This's also a lately post which took place in Senayan 2 years ago. I was so lucky to get the pre sale and able to watch the datsun. hahahaha, Moreover my fav band also starred at that time. The Sigit, yeayyyy. W was also happy coz he gotta get a pict with his fav vocalist rufio. The ticket was not too expensive coz the promotor was not like javamusiciondo or the other executive EO. But it didn't matter since I could see the datsun and the sigit with only 85K Rupiahs if I'm not mistaken.
Tonights alive , Destine and Marky Ramones were also on stage . But it devided into three part of stage in the same time.
I like rock n roll, The Strokes, the datsun, theye were great. So was the sigit. hihihi. I had just known that Rekti (the vocalist) was not too tall. Perhaps he wasn't as tall as me. But still , his carisma couldn't be avoided, hihihi.
His stage act was magnificent. totally out, interactive, smart, ellegant, his English accent was good. I like him. With his long hair, he sucsessfully brought the audiences into an amazement.

Thanks for the photo picker : W :)

Ang here they were The Datsun sang "You're motherfucker from hell.."

This basist, reminds me with one of Voltury family members in Twilight Saga, hahaha.
And also Destine, a new comer Indie Artist from Australia.

And also Rufio and Tonightsalive's vocalists were singing in the other accoustic stage. Opposite with Datsun's stage

Scott Sellers , the vocalist was actually a bit drunk. But he kept singing well. And I was surprised that he wa not a tall guy. Perhaps, I'm still taller than him. But he was a nice guy, he was ok surrounded by his fans who were eager to take picts with him.

In the other hand, the preivious music show that I watched with H was in Balai Kartini. I was curious to watch Efek Rumah Kaca's performance live. And U will be surprised that the members were very humble and simple guys. But behind their simplicity, their performance was like a solitude show, everyone were drown by the music and Cholil's voice. That was a relief in the weekend watching their show. The audience were silent and drift by the 'Melancolia'. Somehow, my hair-still raising listening to this song. Don't know why, this song gave a certain magnetism and a mystic touch inside it. Awesome!

Look at his expression singing that song. I missed to watch his show again

I met Niken and her boyfriend there, They're also ERK's fans like me.

I was lucky when I wanted to go home, I met Akbar and Adrian . They were really kind and simple. I got a chance to take pict with them . hihi

That was a great moment to be shared here. Since I wanted to watch music show since I was in High School but I was never allowed to go home late with my Mom. So That was a rare moment for me .

Get My Confident Back

Guys, u must have  known what does it feel when u lose your confident? I believe u have. Two and half years ago I undergone the phase that can be called 'crisis of existance'. huuhuhu. It happended since my over weight gained up to 60 kilos. God Damn! all of trousers and t-shirt must be thrown out :( . That was all my fault. I let myself to eat four times a day. Carbohydrate addict, sugar maniac , noodle lovers. O my God! Perhaps it was also beacuse I was too much happy to gain my comfort having a relationship with him. My pants size was 32. my t-shirt size was xl , I losed my confident. I felt so ugly, i felt terrible.
W gave a diet reciept from his collegue. It was called 'hypertension diet ' coz it was a diet for a preson who suffered from high blood pressure. The list of the menu was terrible. but I felt so desperateso that I decided to do the that method. Before I started the diet. I set the the target to be achieved. I wanted to gain 45s , so I must be able to lose 14kilos.
These are my pict before the diet. arrghhh I am so ashamed with this. hohoho

That was when I was in 59 kilos. I ate 4 times a day, I loved junked food, I love Carbo.
Look at my stomach. That was a terrible thing to be hidden .

look at my thigh! O my God

look at my cheeks! I was bad in every pictures. arrghhhhh

Coz I couldn't live with noodles at that time. Sometimes I ate french fries with rice. O My God.
But after I got the reciept, I wanna say to my self. I wanted a skinny look most rather than any other delicious and tempting food. I swear to God, I wanna lose my weight.
These are the menu that W gave to me. Believe it or not. Every diet only needs one condition : That is "Intention, earnestness,and persistent". Don't ever try if u haven't got them.

Breakfast :
1. Non Fat Milk,
2. apple and pear juice, one tablespoon of olives oil.
3. drink a glass of water per hour.

Lunch:
1. 5 tablespoon of brown rice
2. 2-3 eggs, cooked without oil or fried, without salt, sugar, or MSG
3. fish/chiken/ tofu or soya bean cake, cooked without sugar, salt, or MSG
4. vegetable. it is free whether u wanna cooked in a big amount of vege. But remember, without salt, sugar, or MSG
5. drink a glass of water per hour
6. U can eat fruit if u are still hungry

Dinner
not more up to 7 pm.
the menu is the same with lunch
if u still hungry eat fruits and drink a lot.

Prohibition:
salt, sugar, ice , ice cream, chocolate ( except dark choco), cheese, margarine, durians, avocado, banana, MSG, soya sauce, ketcup, soft drinks, chips, snacks, noodle,

Just stick to the menu and do it with iklas.
Just think of how beautiful u are after u get your target.

Guys, this is the result after the diet about 3 months

I get my 45 :)

I am confident with camera right now :)

my pants now is 27 or S size :)

Just believe in yourself. Don't hear what people said. show them when u achive your target.
that is the result of earnestness.

One more important thing, u should still keep maintaining your weight. eat healthy food, drink much water, avoid cold drink, consume vegetable, love your fruit. Do the exercise once a week if it is necessary. remember what someone had said " U are what u eat"
For the last but not least : U determine yourself. Don't hear what people said about you. Just do what u believe it's true.

And Now, I wanna say

GOOD BY FAT! ANYONGGG

Aku lagi pura-pura gendut

When We Grew Up

Time passes so fast. 4 years ago, I was just a highschool student who  just knew the world. Knew how to smoke, how to absent from class, how to undergo the puppy love. We are now the adult. One of a friend of mine has just became a Mom with a cute baby boy named Vino. I thought that she's changed a lot. More mature, spiritual , and relax. I am happy to see it. Life changes much, and so does mine. a week later after I had dated with W to Sentul, I met my high school mate , we were heading to Bogor. We planed to go to the hot spring in Sentul and continue to Bogor.
I Thank to God I have met them in my life. And thank to hima to understand me absent from our date every Saturday. hehehe I miss u.

They are Amelia and Saskia. We change a lot since graduation. But it's just our look, not our traits. We're still the same. Admiring the woods in Pantjar Mountain, we took this pic, but  unfortunately Mely was taking this  pict and couldn't join the pose.

After that, we were heading to Bogor to pick up one of my friend too, a new young Mom with a cute babyboy Dita. We dropped by the Death By Chocolate. One of the cafe in Bogor which decorated with hallowen theme and other scary accesoris. I forgot to take a pict of my meal order, but I had repathed from saskia's order. Octopus Spagethi. I didn't know how it tasted. But, i didn't really like the color of the pasta.

Bony was missing! Coz she took this pict, hihihi
At that night, we had to attend one of our junior's siblings wedding party in Bogor. It didn't matter for me though I was not comfortable to change the out fit and did the make up in other's home. It was still fun.

I came very late at home at that night, luckily my Mom had fallen asleep so that she didn't notice my arrival. See u in another chance guys :*

Ring Rainbow

That saturday was the best date during this 2013. But I hope I can undergo another great date with him. Our date was closed by a magnificent ring rainbow. I never saw such that beautiful rainbow before. Oh My God, that was really awesome. I present this to you readers! :)

It was taken in a big mosque near Ah Pong Market , Sentul City. I directed my self from the car, and barely walked to catch this moment from the most suitable position. That was awesome!
In the afternoon before, we ran away from a boring city J Town to a small mountain near Sentul. It was Pantjar Mountain. But It's more like to be hills not a mountain.
The Mountain's surroundedby tall pine trees and that is usually used by the mountain bikers to down hill ride. FYI : This place is also a great spot to take pictures for the Pre wedding, or to be a good set of photo section and making video clip or film. By the way , be careful if u bring a complete camera like DSLR and the other accessoris. Coz u will have to report it first that u wanna take pictures there. I'm afraid you will be charged to pay for money. So, I guess a small pocket camera or a high resolution of camera handphone is good enough to take your moment there.

Seems like in Forks. hehehe. I like the atmosphere there. U can't get it near J Town.

Nice angle W :) thank u to take that pic.
Moreover, there is also a hot spring pool near the woods. U can rent for a private bath if u want . It costs around 100 thousand rupiah if I'm not mistaken. FYI : Don't forget to order 'gorengan and coffee while u bathing there. It was very cozy. look at my happy face, hahaha

After finished bathing in the hot spring, I was starving to death. And searching the recommended place near Sentul, we decided to go Ah Pong Market near Belleza Mall. That was a crowded market food , but it looked great. I wanna come back again there and try the snowy ice next time. The place was a good place to hang out with your family or friends. There are also a park and a mini museum that exhibit some artistic works from artists. And I was so stupid to miss taking pictures of the workcoz my batterey was dropped at that time.
But I found a silly statue , it looked a little porn. hahahaha.

There were also some small boatif u wanna sail it.

Hi W, U looked so full by your meal, hahaha

Try this place if u are bored with cafes in J Town. Or u can ask you boyfriend to do the downhill if u're bored dating in theater.

Green Canyon September 2012

The other lately post will talk about my escapimg journey with my best friends, Amelia and saskia. They are my best sista whom I met since high school. Though we're kinda busy with my own life, we's try to spare our time in the middle of Qnoy's time conducting her thesis. Sorry Sist, to distract yout thesis time at that time :).
The journey was magnificent. we laughed a lot, we smoke much , we swam a bit, then we jumped so high.
This is our happy face before take off from qnoy's flat in Jatinangor

i sat next to melly, while Qnoy sat in beside our seat. we fell asleep during the journey. But I took a pic before we arrive at Pangandaran at that time.

The journey 's about 6 or 7 hours if I'm not mistaken. I do remember while We touched down at the bus station around 1 pm, coz I'm starving to death that afternoon. After getting the Becak we went around looking for the hotel to stay for a night. and we got a hotel in front of the beach. Luckily there were many rooms empty coz we went there on weekday. And the rate was cheaper than usual in weekend. Finished tidy up our bags, we continue our fav time. yeaaaah culinary tour. we found a delicious seafood restaurant near east beach named "x' , i forgot the name. after having a late lunch, we went back to the hotel coz we're gonna catch the sun set . yeahhh, and we got it. :)

Then in the next following day, we visited the Green Canyon. Luckily, the water was clear at that time, it looked so exotic with a green water accompanied by the cave and the stalacted hanging from the cave. we decided to swam a bit, eager to know hoi it felt swimming in the green water like that. And u know guys, the water was very fresh, cold, and we didn't regret to swim there. Accompanied by a guide who knew well the Canyon, we were directed to swam and avoided the coral coz it was shap enough. So we must be careful with that. The guide also challanged us to jumped from a high stone . Mely persuade me to join, and I was being brave coz she wanted to try too.
But, evertthing was diffrent when u were in the top of the high stone. my feet were weak. I was afraid of the height. It is about 6 meters. But it is quite high. I couldn't imagine if I stroke by the coral inside the water. I just pray and read alfatihan 7 times. Pray the best that i could landed in the water savely. and I counted untill three. One... Two... Three... Shouted it loude. "mamiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii..."

alhamdulilah, I sucsessfully landed.
there was a certain satisfaction after you can jump from that high point. It seems that u have released your stress and throw it away through your loud and scream. It felt so relief. I felt so happy. so was Melly.
For cooling down, we swam a bit near the coral, taking pictures and enjopying our last moment there. Coz we gotta to go back to daily routine. Green Canyon is also a hidden paradise in west Java. it is also a recommended place to be visited with your friends or boyfriend. Don't forget to try jumping from the rock. It is awesome.

 

 

 

ANYONGGG! MISS U SIST